Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Headed West

Okay so it's early morning for most of you, but it's mid afternoon here, and we are about to head over to the SDA to pick up K's refferel, and then over to the train station.  A 16 hour train ride for us tonight.  Please send us lots of love, prayer, and good wishes that it's a half decent train and that Emily will actually sleep tonight.

Before we go I wanted to share with you some photos of our apartment.



Our tiny kitchen


Our bathroom with a giant tub, and
a washing machine directly in front
of the toliet.


Love the doors to the sunporch!
The bedroom
All 3 of us slept in the bed.  That pipe is HOT!!
The sunporch
Our view

Our time in the city has been very quick.  We didn't get to see anyone or anything really.  Well, that's not ture.  We did see the Dickenson family quickly as they were leaving the SDA and we were still sitting there for our appointment.  We smiled and did a quick wave, but that was it.  I hope that we have a little more time in the city on our way home, and that we are able to enjoy it. 

We are looking forward to the next steps in this journey :-)  Can't wait to share it with all of you!

Blessing for a bright and beautiful day:)

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

SDA Baby :)

I thought that I was doing so well. I laid out all of our clothes the night before, pulled out all of the meds and vitamins and placed them in little cups so we would all be sure to take our things in the morning. Then I got up early this morning and showered before Mike and Em got up. I got dressed, saw the time and woke them up. I was surprised and how willingly Emily got up, even though she seemed to be very tired still. She let me dress her and brush out her hair without complaint. Then it started, she didn't want to eat anything we have here. She wanted Cherrios, which we had offered to buy for her at the grocery store the day before but she had pitched a fit about not wanting them and so we did not. Then Mike found out that I didn't pack him hair gel, and was a little frustrated. Well, I was finally able to convinced Emily to eat some oatmeal, and had the kettle going. I got her some orange juice, and Mike fixed his hair with my hair spray, and I decided that I'd better have something too. I poured myself some water, and took my vitamins....ya, nope! I took Mike's vitamin and blood pressure medication instead!!!! Great, not sure what to do now. I tried to make myself sick, but that didn't work, so I'm just going to have to live with it, and make sure that my blood pressure doesn't get too low.


In the middle of all of this Niko calls us, an hour early to say that he's here, we have 10 minutes. So none of us got to eat anything. Thankfully we were ready, we grabbed our bags and left. I am SO grateful for all of the blogs that I have read that had pre warned me of the "you have 5 minutes" phone calls, that have a habit of coming when you're not really expecting them too. I can't imagine what would have happened if I didn't wake the two of them up when I did. We got a tiny tour of where the restaurants of interest where, and a few other things as we drove over to the SDA for our appointment. We were so early that we had to go and sit at the Pizza restaurant and wait. We got Emily some juice, but she refused to even try it. Which was fine, because I drank it - hoping to keep my blood sugar up and not have any trouble from the unexpected meds. Man, I can't believe I did that!!!!

Then it was time. It was finally and actually time for ME us, to go into the SDA. We meet Serge, and entered the building. We of course went in through the side door, and waited in the hall, just like everyone else who has been there before us!!!! As we stood waiting, I started to feel really excited, but not nervous or jittery the way I have before, I was very calm (maybe that was the meds working for me). I was just so happy to finally be having our turn. I grabbed Mike's hand and squeezed! And said "Yay!! We're inside of the SDA!" He thinks I'm a nut;)

And then, well then, it REALLY was our turn. We got to walk up the stairs, and into an office. Our social worker, Svetlana, was very nice. We had to show her our passports so she could verify that we were us. Then she asked us to tell her about ourselves, and why we wanted to adopt a child with special needs. They told us K's name, her birth date, where she is, that her birth mother had signed over her rights (all things that we already knew). Then we got to see 2 different photos of her. The first was the photo that they have posted on their web site, except on the web site it is cropped. I was able to take a photo of this one, but mine didn't come out very clearly. The second is a photo that I've never seen before. It is adorable, AND it is now mine!!! Serge asked if we could have it before I had a chance to say anything, and it's mine:) She is SO cute!! Of course we already knew that, but still, she is! And just like that our appointment was over. No more questions, no more information, no looking at our photos that I stressed and agonized over, nothing. In total I think we were in the office for 20 mins.


Our SDA picture!!!  We finally have one:)

Serge had to send Niko out to do a few things with paperwork, so he took us back over to the restaurant while we waited. We all had something to drink and Em had some ice cream. Serge told us more about the process that we are about to go though, about the region we are headed to, suggestions and advise about what to do while we are there, as well as working through the language barrier with K etc. Then Niko got back from his running around and brought us back to the apartment. On the way back we got to drive past Independence Square.

Instead of coming upstairs when we got back, we went to the grocery store instead. We picked up a few items, along with a bag of Lay's chips with the picture of a crab on them. Crazy husband of mine is determined that he needs to try these. We also picked up some pasta to make for dinner. It was our intent to go back out after we brought the food back, but Emily needed a break and I started working on these updates, and before we knew it lunch time was over. Mike made me a super yummy grilled cheese sandwich and that was lunch. He and Emily went out for a little walk to pick up some more water. We have now had dinner and are settling down to get Emily ready for bed.

Tomorrow Niko will pick us up by 4 pm. We can pick up K's official referral paperwork sometime between 4 & 5. Ludmilla has already ordered the train tickets for us, and she will be accompanying us by over night train to K's region. It is VERY likely that you will not get an update from us at all tomorrow, as we will be packing and traveling. On Thursday we will have MUCH running around to do, and we should get to meet our little girl:) I'm not sure when we will have internet or how good it will be, but you can be sure that I WILL post just as soon as I can!!!!

Getting Here!

What a crazy day Sunday was. I didn't sleep at all on Saturday night. Come Sunday morning I still had so much to do!!! At no point in time did any of what was happening feel real. I can tell you that around 2 am, I did start freaking out though, and couldn't stop shaking. Come 3 pm we were all ready to go. My Mum was at our house ready to drive us to the airport, our bags were packed and in the car.... There was nothing else but to go.


We got through all of the check points at Pearson quickly and easily. The hardest, longest part was when we took the portable DVD player from Emily's bag and put it with the rest of the stuff, she thought that we were getting rid of it and started crying. Then she wouldn't walk through the metal detector. Finally the man said "Mame, just pick her up and carry her through" And so we did. She enjoyed seeing the planes through the windows, and chatted happily with anyone who would talk to her. We got something to eat for dinner, which was HORRIBLE, and went to sit and wait to board. There was no room to sit close to our boarding area so we were sitting over and away. When the lady started talking over the load speaker, we got up and walked to the boarding area. Many other people got up as well. This started a little bit of chaos in the woman's life, as she just wanted to review some things with everyone, and was not ready to board anybody yet. She kept yelling at everyone to have a seat, and never did review anything. When she got up again to start boarding people, everyone kind of ran at her, and again she got very flustered with everyone. She wanted only people who needed assistance and people with little ones. This seemed to confuse many people, so we slipped past and were the first one's on the plane. Emily was super excited but didn't realize that we were already on the plane. She hoped right up into her seat and put her seatbelt on. She did all right during the flight. As she got more tired she became more restless, and in true Emily style did NOT want to go to sleep, because she was not in HER bed. She wanted the plane to turn around and take us home. There were many tears, and I felt bad for her. She eventually fell asleep on me and we were able to lay her out between the two of us. They woke the plane up at about 2 am and served breakfast, I got her up at that time too. We had a sweet little monkey in sitting in front of us, who reminded me SO much of Nicole. She kept trying to climb over the seat to talk with us. She and Emily had some fun being silly together. As for the plane and the airline, we would defiantly fly them again! They were friendly enough (other then the crazy woman at the boarding gate), we felt safe (well as safe as you can when you are flying over the ocean), and they were constantly serving us something, juice/wine, dinner, tea/coffee, water, juice, breakfast, tea/coffee. The food wasn't all that bad...not that I really ate anything.


Everyone impressed with their dinner?

Yep, that's our plane!!!

Silly girl crawling on the floor

Yes, this is how she slept

The plane landed yesterday on time. We got off of the plane on the tarmac and took a bus (with out seats) into the airport. We walked in, got in line behind one other person and gave the lady our passports. She asked us where we were staying, and seemed a little annoyed with us that we didn't know. She stamped them and waved us on. We walked through the doors, grabbed a luggage cart and found where ours was coming out. It took us a minute to figure out if we should follow the green or red arrows for customs, but everyone was following the green so we did too. We got in line to put our stuff up on the conveyer belt for the x-ray and the lady waved us through. We went through the doors and Niko was standing there with our name clipped to the front of his jacket waiting for us. We changed money at the airport. I knew that we would do it right away, but was not expecting that, and had to dig into the money belt to find some cash. Niko also bought us minutes for the cell phone while we were at the airport. In the car we received our cell phone and a run down of the next day, and the plans that he knew so far for our adoption. As we drove into the city, he pointed out places of interest and history. He took us to the grocery store that is near our apartment and helped us to buy some items. He showed us where to go should we want to walk to the grocery store again later. We arrived at our apartment and he wrote down our address for us, in English and Russian. He gave us verbal directions to get to TGI Friday's, the Ukrainian Buffet, and the Mandarin grocery plaza. Then, we paid him and he left. We put the groceries away, and took a nap. When we woke up we just went through some of the bags and got settled in better.



The cleaning lady had been finishing up as we arrived and had left a load of laundry going. I thought that I would be helpful and hang the stuff to dry....and the clothes shocked me! I don't know what was going on, but it happened twice, so we unplugged the washing machine!!!!! It's unfortunate as I was hoping to do a load of laundry before we leave as I was hoping to do a load of laundry before we leave for our region, as our jackets all ended up on the floor of the plane, and look like it.

It took Emily a long time to fall asleep again last night, as it wasn't her bed. She wanted Grandma to drive her car over here and get us. I tried hard to stay up so that I could get a blog post done, but I just couldn't keep my eyes open any longer. I Skyped my mom and asked her to send out the email letting people know that we went to bed, and would update today. I had a horrible time sleeping as the alarm clock we brought doesn't work, and I was terrified that we would over sleep. SDA in the morning!!!!!!!!!!

Saturday, March 26, 2011

The LOVE!

CAN ALL OF YOU FEEL IT?!!!  Seriously?  Can you?  Cause, boy oh boy, we ARE feeling it here, let me tell you! 

We tried to get out of the house early today to start our running around, but had a late start.  We had to go to downtown Toronto today.  That, was not so much fun.  We drove around for way to long trying to find parking, paid too much for parking.  Ah....the story of heading into the city.  By the time we got to the office it was almost 4 pm.  I couldn't believe what I found when I tried to quickly check my email.  Blog comments like crazy, facebook notifications galore, and email from Renee with exclamation marks on it.  I knew that Adeye was going to write a post about us today.  She had asked me for our story, poor woman -I'm sorry Adeye I promise that was me trying to keep it short!  I had NO idea that the post was going to be only about us, and that she was going to offer added incentive by way of a pretty new Kindle.  When I clicked on her blog and saw how she honoured Kameron and my family I didn't know what to do.  I jumped up hitting my knee and elbow, while gasping loudly.  Or was it loudly, did I even have a voice in my shock?

And then I saw the ChipIn....  I think my heart stopped!  There was a little under $2000 added since I had left.  $2000 blessed upon us for our little girl, from all of you.  All of a sudden I couldn't breath, I thought that it was unbelievable.

Then we got home and I logged in to everything.  In less then a hour the ChipIn had JUMPED, there were more emails, facebook was crazy, and not normal crazy, REALLY crazy.  Right away I was IMing with 4 different people, and that continued until I logged off after midnight.  The grand total for today?  We raised $6064 to get Kameron HOME! 

All night I have been sitting here in shock.  Every donation that comes in causes me to jump and gasp.  I am shocked and honoured by each one!!!  We are SO close to being fully funded at this very moment.  A place that I have hoped to be, but at time REALLY wondered if we would get here or not.  I am so happy that many of you have sent me emails, I've tried to reply, however quick and brief they may be, to all of them.  How do you thank someone for giving your child their life, their dreams, their family?  How do we thank you for helping us to get our daughter?  My heart is overflowing, and I can feel the love and support surround us and carry us forward.  My poor husband has never seen anything like this before and had NO idea that such miracles exist.  Well, he certainly knows it now :)

We have been blessed in SO many ways today.  Opening Mike's eyes to the world of community support, and love.  Showing him not only that miracles can happen, but that they can happen to US.  Reminding me that asking for help is okay, that some things are bigger then one person, and some things are bigger then your pride (..my pride..).  Showing our girls that this world is full of love and good, and that this love and good is there for them.  Reminding me of the all important lesson of mine in this life, that I can not control everything, and that I must give up my attempt to control everything all of the time. 

I am so sorry that I don't have the words that I wish I did to express how we are feeling, to share with you the gratitude that we feel.  To share just how appreciative we actually are.  It is VERY late, I am VERY tired, but couldn't go to bed without posting.  So...

THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!! 

The daily winner today is

Nicole Arigo

And the winner for reaching our $8000 goal is,

# 44 Stefanie Senkiw

Love and Blessing to each of you.  Go forth in perfect love and prefect trust :)

Friday, March 25, 2011

The Bestest Day EVER!!!

Um, WOW!!!  Today was seriously one of the best days ever!!!  I had NO idea how much a few things were stressing me out, until they disappeared today.

In reality, we are pretty private people.  We have our family, and a few close friends who we consider family, and that is who we spend our time with and live our lives with.  We aren't, what I would call, very social.  Even though we live in a small town, where everyone knows everyone, I goes months going to the grocery store, pharmacy, department store etc on a regular basis and not running into anyone I know.

When our oldest daughter passed away 19 months ago, we were so touched and overwhelmed by the outpouring of love.  Our hearts soared to see how many people came out to pay their respects, to see how many people's hearts our special angel had touched.  It defiantly helped us through, to know that when she was here, that she had life.  That she was loved as much as she loved.  That she brought happiness, with her happiness.  And not just to us, to everyone she touched.  Which turned out was more people then we even knew.  Destiny's life reached out and touched the world around her.  Her love knew no boundaries.

Now we sit here mere days away from our new daughter, faced with an obstacle, that if we allowed, could take her away from us.  And here we stand, a second time in our lives, completely overwhelmed by the outpouring of love for our soon to be daughter.  Never in my wildest dreams did I ever expect there to be days like we have had the last few days.  I NEVER thought that we would fundraiser for our adoption.  I NEVER thought that we would be denied for all of the credit options that we applied for and were sure that we would get.  I NEVER thought that we would not receive the Canadian grant.  I NEVER thought that our early fundraisers would flop SO hard.  I NEVER thought that we would be 2 weeks from leaving to meet K, and be short so much money.  I NEVER thought that I would actually beg people to help me do anything, ever (unless you are my little sister, sorry Rox!).  I NEVER thought that I would allow the sadness and despair to hit me.  I DIDN"T realize that we had so many people out there ready to surround us with their love and support.  I DIDN'T realize that when you ask for help, there are people willing to help, without strings and judgment.  I DIDN"T realize that our little girl has made such an impact on so many people, and is loved by so many.  I DIDN'T realize that we were so loved by so many.  I also had NO idea how much I was holding on to, and how much I needed to let go of. 

Renee gave me the day off today.  She told me not to worry about anything.  To turn my computer off, not think about it, or stress out about it, and to go and get the other things done that I need to do before we leave.  She assured me that she would take care of everything.  She spent the day re posting our fundraiser.  Tracking down people who shared it and letting them know how much we appreciate their help.  She has completely and selflessly given herself over to help us get our daughter home.  And she has inspired so many others to help.  I'm not sure that I even know exactly what and who is being offered out as part of our giveaway for today ;p  Well, I come back from my day off feeling much more at peace with everything.  I am excited and terrified of our upcoming trip, but all of it in a good way.  I have been able to find my balance and inner knowledge that we are on the right path, and that what ever needs to happen to unite us with our daughter will happen.  I have abolished all doubt and poison from my heart and mind, and go forward in perfect trust.

Today was also a completely awesome fundraising day for us.  Which did help with some of the above.  We are left speechless, unsure or exactly how to adequately thank everyone who has pulled together for us.  Please know that we greatly appreciate each and everyone of you, and I would like to personally thank each of you as well.  Please do NOT hesitate to leave me a message in the comments or email me sara_beamish@hotmail.com and let me know that you're out there.  The thank yous will be slow, but they will come.  I find that when you write to many at once they all start to sound the same, and although it is the first time the recipient is reading it, you lose heart for it.  So I will do them slowly, as to thank each of you in a way that means something to me and you (hopefully).  We received 49 donations today, totalling $2877.30.  Which brings our total raised to $7274.  Which leaves us with a total of $8726 to raise!!  We are almost half way there!!!

Please bear with all of us, as we figure out which incentive you qualify for and we get our name and email address to all of the involved parties.  Please remember that if you donate to our FSP directly, you MUST email or comment me your email address.  I will only be able to get your name and amount from the FSP - NO email or mailing addresses!!!!!! 

Your daily draw winner is....

# 1638 Allen Cox

Melissa Moos, winner of the gift card for the draw in celebration of reaching our $4000 goal, has graciously donated her winnings back to Kameron's fund.
Thank you Melissa!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday, March 24, 2011

Pendants, pendants, everywhere!!!

Most of you know Sarah Latello of Sarah's Treasure Box.  She hosted a fundraiser on her etsy shop for us (as she does for many adopting families) and we were able to raised $285 back in February with her help :)

And she wants to offer her help to us again, so that we can raise more.  She wants to help do what ever we need to do to get our little girl home. 

She just messaged me and said....

"...For 24 hours I will give a FREE pendant to the first 50 people that donate $25 or more."

She also said...

"...I can't stand by and watch, I want to be part of this miracle!"

How wonderful and awesome is Sarah!!!!!?

SO, that means that the next 50 people to donate $25 or more will recieve a FREE pendant from Sarah's store.  If you donate directly to our FSP and not through our ChipIn, please be sure to leave me a comment with your email address so you can claim your necklace.







Where to start?

Truth? Honesty? Ya, I think I've promised those things here before. And I deliver, I'm honest with you. I may not share all that is on my heart, but what I do share is the truth. So here's a little more of it for you.


I have been sobbing my hart out since yesterday. That lovely lady Renee, she wrote a blog post sharing her heart, and she could have been reading my mind. It complete crack through every wall I've put up in my attempt to stay positive, in my attempt to have unwavering faith that our needs would be meet someway somehow.... I started crying, and I couldn't stop. Well, that's not entirely true... After about an hour and a half or so I stopped. An odd tear may have leaked out, but the sobbing had stopped. At some point I got a little bit of sleep. Then I woke up, and it started all over again. My poor husband just wanted to know what was wrong so we could fix it, but I couldn't put it all into words. And the truth is, that I wasn't even sure where all of it was coming from.

We had to go out again today. I took the opportunity to sit and stare blankly at the wall at the office while my daughter pawed through all of Grandma's books. It was a nice couple of minutes with no thoughts. When I got home, I thought that I was feeling better. That I was done with the sadness, and ready to climb back into trying my hardest to stay positive and keep the faith. I was absolutely stunned when I got home. Beautiful messages of love and support from all forums, so many people sharing our need and our story on facebook, people writing blog posts for us, and people donating. Well, it was a lot for this fragile hart to take, the tears started again. And it has taken even longer to get them to stop this time, because everywhere I look, there's my little girl's beautiful face looking back at me. I am SO touched and honoured that our story is being heard and told. That we are amassing an army of support behind us to get Kameron home (I can't wait to share her name with all of you!!). I believe in fate, destiny, faith, affirmations, karma, and divine intervention, as well as divine discontent. And I believe that is will all work out.

Thank you to each and every one of you!!! PLEASE email me or comment if you have shared on you blog. I want to print these out for K's memory box. Beautiful memories of how our community has pulled together to show this one little girl just how much she means and to how many people. And, I'd like to have the chance to thank each of you personally and properly when I have a chance to go through them all and do so.

SO....today we finally reached and surpassed the $4000 goal!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And what's more, we raised $1107 today! Remember just yesterday I said that we had raised $668, and that it was the most we had ever raised in one day? I'd have to say that the army is working ;p Please keep sharing, and please stay a join us on our trip. We do leave on Sunday! Our next step in the fundraising goal is to double that $4000 and make it say $8000. Keep your eye on the thermometer at the top of the blog. Some people donate directly into our FSP, so I keep track of how much money we have raised through the ChipIn, FSP and cash on the thermometer. So yes, anyone who has been wondering. If you donate directly through the FSP, I receive it, I know about it, and it DOES count toward all of the draws :)

And without further ado, the daily draw winner is

# 954 Alicia Fanz

And the winner draw for having reached our $4 000 goal is

# 780 Melissa Moos

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Inching closer and closer....

Another day has come to an end, and what a day it has been. We are still struggling to reach the next goal in our fundraiser to bring our little girl home. I will not lie, at some points it starts to feel as if this may be an impossible goal. But today, we were blessed by $668 of donations. The most money we have EVER received in a single day! And that my friends, is exciting :) Thank you to everyone who has made any of this possible. All of you who pray for us, surround us with love and light, everyone who had donated, and all of you who share our story and our need to help us to reach our goal, and our daughter.


In our countdown to getting ready to go and meet with our adorable Miss K, we went shopping again today to get something for Daddy to wear to court, and a few other little things, like K's very own hairbrush :) And now I can finish packing our bags! That is exciting too!!

Before I announce today's winners I wanted to take a moment to let everyone know that we are certainly not the only ones trying to raise money to bring our daughter home.

This is my beautiful friend Renee,


Renee and her husband are currently doing EVERYTHING they possibly can to get their little girl home.  In the day when everyone is offering an iPad, Renee has something different going on.  She has a stunning collection of jewlery up on her blog that you can earn some chances to win, by donated to help Paisley get home.  But she has offered up a little bit of FUN to her fundraiser!  She has an awesome band of friends who have surrounded her to help her along with the fun.  Renee, one of her friends Kim, and her husband have all taken pies to the face, to celebrate reaching goals along the way.  Another friend of her's, Michelle, has dyed her hair HOT PINK to celebrate another notch in the fundraiser goal.  And if they can raise $2000 by Saturday, then all 3 of the ladies husbands will be going out for dinner......IN DRAG :)   Now that folks, is love and devotion!!!!!!  PLEASE stop over to Renee's blog and take a look.  Consider helping them to reach their goal, they only have $580 left to raise.  Come and follow along on their journey to their daughter.  Renee has the biggest heart, and I love her to pieces.  I can't wait to see her with her beautiful, beautiful girl in her arms..... PAISLEY


And today’s daily draw winner is,


# 791 Theresa Smith

Congratulations Theresa, please email me at sara_beamish@hotmail.com

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

The begining of the end...

Awe Monday....  The day that so many people wish just wouldn't come.  The end of the weekend, the beginning of the new week, and all that it entails.  For us, today, this was the last Monday that we have before we leave.  But it's more then that, this was also the last Monday that we will ever have at this house as a family of 3.  This is the last week that we will ever have as a family of 3.  For the next few weeks we will be a family of 3 1/2, with a little girls firmly apart of our lives, spending time with her, our days and lives revolving around her, before she can become permanently and officially a part of our family.  And we become 4.

When this point in our lives came and we were expecting the birth of a child any day now, we were busy, but it was so different.  There was this tiny little thing, constantly reminding me that they were on their way, and with wicked "morning" sickness all through out the early stages (both times), that reminder seemed to have been there right from day one.  Then, we were going out for our last "date" together before the new baby came.  We were stealing quite moments, and trying to get extra sleep.  It was such a calm busy in comparison. 

This time everything is SO different!  This time I am begging for help to bring our daughter home, instead of being honoured by family and friends at a baby shower.  This time round we are stressing about what it will be like to travel to the other side of the world, we have only traveled Canada and the US, and then still not very much.  We are worried about all of the unknown, and for feeling like I know all there is to know that I can know, there is still SO much that I don't know.  And we are preparing...  There is SO much to do still!!! 

Today we went out.  We went and purchased our travel medical insurance, money belts, and travel electrical adaptors, ops, another almost $400 that for whatever reason we hadn't budgeted for!  We were also able to get K a very nice, lined, spring jacket.  I thought that we would also be able to grab a little extra cash to add to our adoption fund, by returning a couple of items, but alas, no.  We were given store credit....  I hate when stores do that.  It certainly makes you think twice before buying!  Okay, maybe a little off the point there...  OH!!!!  We got the most important item today!  I let our little one pick out a special little snugly to give to her new sister when they meet.  We stopped at a display of small soft teddy bears, which all had saying across their tummies.  She kept handing them to me asking what they said, and I read them to her over and over again.  She picked a purple one that says "I Love My Sister".  How cute is that!!!  I couldn't stop looking down at her and smiling while we went through the check out and she handed it to the lady and said "I buy this to give to K, cause I love her and she's going to be my sister"  She is so excited too:)  I've almost finished packing.  I have my list of things that we still need, and we are going shopping for them tomorrow evening, so I can finish packing Tuesday night or Wednesday. 

Okay, it's getting late, and I'm rereading and editing because thing are making less and less sense...  SO, we will move along to the winners for today, and the goals for tomorrow:)

The daily winner for Monday is.....

#565 Katherine Parker

The winner of the Week end draw is......

#170 Cammy Lockwood

Congratulations ladies:)  Please email me, sara_beamish@hotmail.com

And our goal for tomorrow is to get up to $4 000.  That's only $1 385, so very achievable:)

And we only have $ 13 385 to go, THANKS!!!!!!!

Monday, March 21, 2011

WOW! What a Sunday!

We leave next Sunday!!!!  Wow, I can't believe that it's finally here.  Fianlly, our turn to go and meet our little girl, and bring her home!  Seriously, do you know how long I've been waiting for this?  SO EXCITED!!!  Um...I think I've said that before ;p

So, a very wonderful happened today.  Do you know already?  Have you seen? 

We doubled our fund, again!!!!!  We ended Sunday at $2 015.30!

Wow, thank you so much to everyone who has donated, prayed, shared, thought about us, and especially to the someone who sent the extremely last minute donation that pushed us over the $2 000 mark tonight!!

I've promised many people that I would actually get some sleep tonight, so I will keep this short tonight and announce our winners.

The winner of the daily draw is,

# 341 Susan Sunderlin

The winner of the draw for reaching our $2 000 goal is,

#335 Susan Sunderlin

Yep, that Random.org for you...again!  Congrats Susan, please email.

For Saturday Night

I know, I know I didn't post last night.  I'm sorry!

We had a great day though :)

We had our families come up for a sort of "good bye" dinner.  It was great to see everyone, the day was bright and sunny, we found some tiny little snow drops in the garden....  it was a pretty great day.

I also wanted to say thank you to the beautiful and loving Mrs. Renee Tam, who gifted her win back to Kameron's coming home fund.  We love you too Renee, THANKS!!!!!

Oh, and did you notice?  We also reached our $1 000 goal!!!!!  In one day, we doubled what we had in our grant.  How great is that?!!!!

And now, for the winner of the day,

# 190 Cammy Lockwood

And now for the winner for hitting the $1 000 goal, 

#254 Cammy Lockwood

Yes, all draws are courtesy of Random.org!  Cammy, please email me. 

Saturday, March 19, 2011

5 Days Down, and a few Prizes

You know what...I had a bunch of things that I wanted to say tonight, but all of a sudden I've come up blank...

So maybe it's business first.  The winner of the daily draw today is....

#146 Sarah White

Congratulations Sarah :)  Please contact me at sara_beamish@hotmail.com so we can figure out your bookmarks.

And early yesterday morning we reached our first dollar amount goal of $500!!!  YEAH!!!!  So that means that it's time for an additional draw.  And the winner of the goal draw is

# 14 Renee Tam

And just so we don't forget why we are here......


I was thinking about her today.  And what it will be like to meet her.  Will she be happy that WE are there for her?  Will she be receptive to us?  Will the girls get along?  Will I scare her half to death at our first meeting because I finally lose it and become hysterical?  Will she be the little girl who we are been told about, or will she have changed that much over the last year, and since her transfer?  And about ten million other thoughts to go with all of them.

This is what one of the families who have meet her had to say about her 15 months ago:

"K is another. She does not have DS, but has some other needs. She is so very happy ALL the time and walks around with a smile on her face...a HUGE smile...all the time. I would say she is the most interested in my attention and loves to come and get hugs. Whenever we come to get A, she is always at the door calling to us as Mama and Papa...so hard knowing that we will be leaving and we aren't going to take her with us. Will her heart be broken? Will a family come for her? ...... She is such a precious little girl. She is all joy and smiles all the time and gets along well with all the other kids. She just wants to be loved, that's it. She wants the other kids to love her, the caretakers, and us. Love. K will be such a sweet addition to whoever brings her home."


Well, I'm sure that I meant to share something else this evening, or should I say this early morning....  But I really think that my brain is screaming out for sleep, so that is where I will head.

Blessing to each of you :)

Friday, March 18, 2011

Scentsy Fundraiser, revised

I was shocked and touched when Ann Gladhart contacted me today and invited us to have a Scentsy Fundraiser with her.

For those of you who do not know, Scentsy sells a safe wickless alternative to scented candles.  Which consist of decorative warmers designed to melt scented wax with the heat of a light bulb instead of a traditional wick and flame.

Which looks like this


and this


and even like this


and they have a ton of wonderful scents that you can chose from.

Just click

HERE

If in the US make sure the top right side has your flag showing (and that you're shopping under our party)

OR

If in Canada make sure that your flag is up (then you can just shop, don't worry about a "party")
Just click on the flag to change it

 to browse through their huge selection and enjoy the convince of shopping from home.
And you'll feel good knowing that you're helping unite a little girl with her family. 

Scentsy Fundraiser, this week only, ends March 25, 2011.



Our fundraiser, improved!

Please read through this post again.  We have kicked this fundraiser into high gear, and we've added prizes galore!!!!
Please also note that the ending date has change due to our travel arrangements.
More new prizes added 3/20/11


See this beautiful girl?  That's who all of this is for, to give her a chance to have a future, and to unite her with her family.  Please help this little girl to COME HOME.



















6 years waiting for a family is WAY to long!  Please don't hate me, but you are going to keep seeing this fundraiser until we have raised the money that we need to spring her from where she is and get her home.
And so without further ado, here it is, our huge fundraiser.
 
The fundraiser starts tonight, Monday, March 14, 2011 and will run until Saturday, March 26, 2011 at 12:00pm EST, or whenever we have reached our goal.

Grand Prize is

 iPad 2 16GB with Wi-Fi, in your choice of Black or White


 
Chances are,

$    5 = 1 entry
$  20 = 5 entries
$  35 = 9 entries
$  50 = 13 entries
$  75 = 19 entries
$100 = 25 entries
$150 = 40 entries


Additional Prizes

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Turbo Jam: 5 Rockin' Body Workouts
Donated by Johanna Back



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Get down and get fit with Shaun T's Fit Kids Club workouts for kids ages 7 and up! It's all about sweat, strength, and FUN with mad awesome dance moves that keep you healthy and energized! It doesn't matter what your size or shape is—or even if you can't dance. Shaun T will teach you cool, new steps with rad music so you'll be rockin' out in no time! These workouts are so much fun, you won't even feel like they're exercise!  Great for adults too ;p
Donated by Johannah Back



Authentic Royal Doulton Figurine, Darling - HN1985
Donated by Nicole Butcher





Custom made tutu dress with up to a size 4T. You can choice up to 3 different colors, or one of her existing designs. Imagine the bliss of your little princess.
Donated by Deanna Sader




Custom made "Blankie Boo". Your choice of color for your car seat or baby carrier
Donated by Kimberley Sherwood

 Mary Kay Tote Bag



Velvet Mary Kay Clutch
(Clasp is slightly different, it is flat)




One Scentsy Buddy and sent of your choice.
Donated by Ann Gladhart

I know, I know, not very original, but now here's the twist!

The Prize Bonanza!!!!

Each day there will be a draw for a set of 4 beautiful custom made bookmarks.

On each of the Mondays  Monday the 21st & Saturday the 26th, there will be a draw for a $10 gift card.

At the end of the fundraiser the person who has shared our fundraiser the most (you need to let me know at the end of the day how many times and where you have shared) will receive $30.

And as we reach each of the following goals there will be a draw for $25.00 gift card.

$    500 - reached March 18th
1 000 - reached March 19th
2 000 - reached March 20th
4 000 - reached March 23rd
8 000 - reached March 25th
$16 000

So here is how it's all going to work,

To win the IPad and other Prize Items,
Each donations of $5 or more gets your name entered into the draw for the iPad, and other prize items.  The more you donate, the more chances you get - see the chances chart.

Daily Draws,
Each donation made for that day gets 1 entry into the daily draw.
After you have donated, each time you share our fundraiser on your blog, fb, or twitter, you get up to 6 entries into that day's draw.

Weekly Draw,
Each donation and up to your 6 fundraising sharing per day made in that week, goes in to the weekly draw.

Goal Draws,
Anyone who has donated and/or shared (up to 6 per day) during the time it takes to reach each goal level will be entered into that goal's draw.

Biggest Sharer,
Is that even a word?  Well it is for this fundraiser ;p  Whoever has shared our fundraiser the most, at the end of the fundraiser will win this prize.  You do NOT have to have donated to win this prize.  Just help us spread the word.  EVERY TIME you share our fundraiser counts for this one. 

Be sure to let me know, and send me the links every time you share our fundraiser if you want to be added for any of this.  Please make sure to check back each day for the draw winners.  It is the responsibility of the winners to get a hold of me so that I can get their prizes to them.

And just for a little more inspiration, and so that you don't forget, here's our precious little girl again,


Please make sure that if you want to be added into the draw for sharing our fundraiser, that you let me know that you have shared.  I am not able to track through everyone's Facebook and Twitter accounts and keep track on my own.  You need to let me know, or it doesn't count.  Sorry, and THANKS!!!!!!!

What a day!

Today was a FULL day, and boy oh boy, do I ever mean FULL.  For starters, I was not supposed to be on the internet today.  My youngest sister was here to help me chisel through this crazy to do list that I have, and I was supposed to be getting lots of things done. 

I'm starting to think that this computer is an extension of my body.  Every time I close it down and think, Oh, thank goodness I done with it - I remember what I've forgotten and realize that a few of those things can't wait, and I'm back on it again.

I was on the phone and the computer all day today.  Trying to finalize our flights, and trying to place our HUGE and SPECIFIC money order.  And this is how it goes...

First you need to know that when you travel to K's country to adopt you carry a VERY large sum of money on you.  You need cash to make all of your payments while in country, and you are living there for a month or longer, so you can get a small idea of just how much cash we need to take.  Okay, so I LOVE my bank.  That may seem like a strange statement, but it is very true.  We have been with them for about 5 years or so now, and I love them.  They have made our lives easier and better.  Our branch, although we don't actually go into it often, is friendly and familiar.  We have a banking officer, who seems to never be working when we have huge things happening like our adoption, but when she's not there, she has someone taking care of her clients.  And not just any someone, the same someone every time.  So it is still someone who we know, and who knows us.  Of course, today, neither of them were in.  I talked to the customer service rep, and she was very helpful and kind.  She wasn't sure that she'd really be able to help us though.  You see, all of this money we need has to be in "like new" condition, without ANY markings, folds, tears, etc.  And the branch can't guarantee the condition of the money, and the country will refuse any less then perfect bills - so it won't do us any good to take those with us.  So the bank manager calls me back, and in the mess of hardened questioning about why I want so much money and how I'm going to pay for it, and where the money to pay for it is coming from she says to me "Um, and how are you going to get this kid back into the country?  How are you going to get it across the boarders?"  Ya, so I thought that I loved my bank, until the bank manager made it sound like she thought that we were doing something shady.  Which of course if we were the first thing we would do is call the bank and tell them every single detail of our plan while asking for a ton of money...  I was able to call the main branch in downtown Toronto and find out exactly what I need to do and when.  Took AWHILE, but we figured it out, and now it waits for another day.

After sending most of the day emailing travel agents and calling airlines, travel agents and expedia, we were able to figure out what we needed to do, and what flights we wanted to take, and book it!!!  I am very happy to announce that we now have our official travel date.  We fly out of Toronto ....

Sunday, March 27th at 6:50 pm

My wonderful sister was able to get many little things finished for me today, which I love because it's so many things that have been crossed off that I no longer have to give thought too. 

And then in the midst of all of these things happening a family was being united in K's country.  A family that over 300 people from all over came together and helped to make their miracle happen.  When they met their son, he ran into their arms and declared that he had been waiting his whole life for them.

And then we all (the Reece's Rainbow community) that one of our families who was a pioneer of their region was denied their son by the judge after a 5 hour hearing.  The judge did not refuse the parents as unfit, she ruled the little boy as unadoptable, as unworthy of a family, because he has Down Syndrome.  I hope that this family appeals this ruling.  And I hope that it bring attention to the problem of how people who are "different" are WRONGLY judged as being unworthy.  And I hope that this judge learns the error of her judgement and becomes educated in what it means to be different, and to perhaps have challenges the the average person does not, and how those things do not equal unworthy.  There are 2 other families waiting to go to court to adopt their children from this region, and these waiting children also have down syndrome.  Please let this issue be resolved BEFORE either of these families need to go to court, so that they their families may be united together, without having to jump through the appeal hoops.

We will also be adding prizes to our iPad Giveaway and Prize Bonanza!!!  So watch for the updated post, with more prizes and more pictures!!

And last but not least the winner of today's draw......

# 115 Renee Tam

Thank you Renee!!!!  I have something special planed for you ;)  And yes, it's almost 2 am and I'm still here trying to get it all done.  Oh, and did you see that we have a new fundraiser today? 

Thursday, March 17, 2011

Our Scentsy Fundraiser

I was shocked and touched when Ann Gladhart contacted me today and invited us to have a Scentsy Fundraiser with her.

For those of you who do not know, Scentsy sells a safe wickless alternative to scented candles.  Which consist of decorative warmers designed to melt scented wax with the heat of a light bulb instead of a traditional wick and flame.

Which looks like this


and this


and even like this


and they have a ton of wonderful scents that you can chose from.

Just click

HERE

If in the US make sure the top right side has your flag showing (and that you're shopping under our party)

OR

If in Canada make sure that your flag is up (then you can just shop, don't worry about a "party")
Just click on the flag to change it

 to browse through their huge selection and enjoy the convince of shopping from home.
And you'll feel good knowing that you're helping unite a little girl with her family. 

Scentsy Fundraiser, this week only, ends March 25, 2011.



Leaving in 10 days!!!!!

Wow, another day done, another day closer to our little girl.  We're defiantly feeling it here.  Our 4 yr old is off, super clingy and whinny and then wants NOTHING to do with you, then cries and cries and can't tell you why.  All the while telling all of her babies about how we are finally going to go and bring K home, and how happy everyone will be when she is finally home and can just play with them.  Yesterday she couldn't wait for K to get home so they could eat cereal together, now it playing with all the babies...too cute.  I can't wait to see that either.

My to do list, in order to leave for SO many weeks, seems to keep growing no matter what I get finished and crossed off of it.  And I'm freaking out a little that I'm going to forget something.  Right now I am waiting to finalize our plane tickets so I can find out EXACTLY what our baggage restrictions will be so that I can pack accordingly, hopefully that will be finished tomorrow. 

Hubby is still worried about the $$ factor, but not as much as he was yesterday.  I am so excited to watch our daughter's miracle take place in front of our eyes.  It is amazing to watch his heart and mind change to a believer, and I know that he is just a touched as I am by the number of people who care about K and want to see her get home with her family.

Currently we are $95 short of reaching our first $$ goal of $500.  I am certain the will we meet and exceed that goal tomorrow (today, since it's after midnight here).  Which means that we will have 2 draws tomorrow night, one for the daily draw and one for reaching the $500 goal :-)  How exciting is that?!!!!

And all of this talk about draws and prizes, well I did the draw for today and the winner is....

#101 Luba Bowden

Congratulations Luba!!!  Please get a hold of me so that we can figure out what you would like for your bookmarks.

And in case you missed it....

We leave in only 10 days!!!

Thanks to everyone for all of your support, no matter what way you give it, we certainly appreciate it :)

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

One day down....

Well the first full day of our fundraiser has come to an end.  And what an exciting day it was!!!!! 

We received our appointment date, we've started to make travel arrangements, and we have raised $265 so far.  More then half way to our first $$ goal!!!!

And since the day is done, there must be a winner in here somewhere......
                            and the winner is..........

                                                              # 10 Renee Tam

Renee you have one the custom bookmarks.  Send me an email or a fb message and we will figure out what you'd like :-)  Congratulations!!!!

Remember if you are sharing our fundraiser on your facebook page, twitter account, or blog (or anywhere else), please let me know so that I can keep track, if you want to be entered into the draws.

Thank you to everyone who has shared our fundraiser today and to all of you who have donated.  When I opened that email today, the one I have been waiting for , and found out that we finally have an appointment, and that we are actually going to .....um, oh...K's country, I couldn't stop shaking.  I was so happy, excited, relived, amazed...and the list goes on.  I called hubby at work to let him know, and he was less then thrilled with my news.  He is so afraid that we will not come up with the money, and that we will not be able to go.  Oh, he of little faith!  I keep telling him that he needs to stop worrying, that everything will work itself out.  And I think that we have had a pretty good start to showing him that people care.  That we are not alone.  And that miracles happen.  Our little girls has been sitting and waiting for her family for too long!  She is 6 years old!  This fundraiser is going to work, because it has to work.  SHE deserves her family.  SHE deserves to come home.  SHE deserves to be loved and feel love from her Mum and Dad (and sister).  This is going to work.  And we thank all of you for helping us to ensure that it does.

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

We got it!!!!!!

I am so EXCITED!!!!  We finally got our apponitment date :-)

We have to be there for Tuesday, March 29th at 11 am, so we will likely be flying out of Toronto on Sunday the 27th!!!!!!!!

We still have a ways to go in the fundraiser.  Please help us to reach our goal of $16 000, BEFORE we leave.  Share, pray, surround us in loving thoughts, and donate it you can.

Hold on baby girl, your family is coming for you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, March 14, 2011

iPad Giveaway with Prize Bonanza!!!!!

See this beautiful girl?  That's who all of this is for, to give her a chance to have a future, and to unite her with her family.  Please help this little girl to COME HOME.



















6 years waiting for a family is WAY to long!  Please don't hate me, but you are going to keep seeing this fundraiser until we have raised the money that we need to spring her from where she is and get her home.
And so without further ado, here it is, our huge fundraiser.
 
The fundraiser starts tonight, Monday, March 14, 2011 and will run until Monday, March 28, 2011.

Grand Prize is

 iPad 2 16GB with Wi-Fi, in your choice of Black or White


 
Chances are,

$    5 = 1 entry
$  20 = 5 entries
$  35 = 9 entries
$  50 = 13 entries
$  75 = 19 entries
$100 = 25 entries
$150 = 40 entries

I know, I know, not very original, but now here's the twist!

The Prize Bonanza!!!!

Each day there will be a draw for a set of 4 beautiful custom made bookmarks.

On each of the Mondays there will be a draw for a $10 gift card.

At the end of the fundraiser the person who has shared our fundraiser the most (you need to let me know at the end of the day how many times and where you have shared) will receive $30.

And as we reach each of the following goals there will be a draw for $25.00 gift card.

$    500
$  1 000
$  2 000
$  4 000
$  8 000
$16 000

So here is how it's all going to work,

To win the IPad,
Each donations of $5 or more gets your name entered into the draw for the iPad.  The more you donate, the more chances you get - see the chances chart.

Daily Draws,
Each donation made for that day gets 1 entry into the daily draw.
After you have donated, each time you share our fundraiser on your blog, fb, or twitter, you get up to 6 entries into that day's draw.

Weekly Draw,
Each donation and up to your 6 fundraising sharing per day made in that week, goes in to the weekly draw.

Goal Draws,
Anyone who has donated and/or shared (up to 6 per day) during the time it takes to reach each goal level will be entered into that goal's draw.

Biggest Sharer,
Is that even a word?  Well it is for this fundraiser ;p  Whoever has shared our fundraiser the most, at the end of the fundraiser will win this prize.  You do NOT have to have donated to win this prize.  Just help us spread the word.  EVERY TIME you share our fundraiser counts for this one. 

Be sure to let me know, and send me the links every time you share our fundraiser if you want to be added for any of this.  Please make sure to check back each day for the draw winners.  It is the responsibility of the winners to get a hold of me so that I can get their prizes to them.

And just for a little more inspiration, and so that you don't forget, her's our precious little girl again,




An attempt to share my heart,

In the last 9 months or so I've read a lot of blogs.  Pretty much all of them have been interesting, but only a few are exceptionally written.  Blogs such as No Greater Joy Mom, and Micah Six Eight, are well written, and so fully of love and emotion....

How on earth are these woman able to express themselves so well?  How are they able to take all of these emotions, emotions that cause physical reactions, and make well throughout coherent posts about them?  You know, there once was a time that I thought that I was a good writer, but that thought quickly went away when I started this blog.

I sit down daily, sometimes more then once a day, with the intention of sharing my heart on this blog.  As you know, their certainly is not a new post everyday though.  Trying to take ALL that I'm thinking and feeling, and cramming it into a post that is a reasonable length and coherent for other to read and understand, and appreciate...  Well, that just doesn't seem to work for me so well.

How do you explain the whole you feel in your life?  When you know that something is missing, and you can feel it out there so far away.  How do you explain to someone that you know that YOUR child is out there, somewhere, and that even though said child may not be of your blood or from your womb that you KNOW  that they are still meant to be with you?  How do you explain to someone how you know that this is the right thing, regardless of what others would see as roadblocks?  How do I possibly get all of these other thoughts and feelings that I don't have words for, down on to the screen?

Adoption has been a very long road for us.  We started this process in the spring of 2003.  May of 2010 we both knew without a doubt that if was time to finish this adoption, one that had been in the abstract for so long.  As soon as we had both expressed that we knew it was time, finding K was so easy.  Knowing that she was our so obvious to us.  I could write a book about how we know this, and how I can see everything so clearly from our first thoughts of adoption so long ago, to her birth, right up to now.  She is our daughter.  In our hearts and souls, she is our child already.

Finding our daughter before hand has been a blessing, and a curse.  Knowing that she is there, what she looks like, where she lives, what she like to eat and play with...  Knowing that she has been taken from what was once her home, and a pretty good one as far as orphanages go, and moved to a whole new world.....  How I hope that it's a good world....

Finding her now, loving her now, thinking about her always.  It takes your adoption to a different level.  It moves it out of the abstract and obscure and throws it into reality.  If for any reason we were to not complete this adoption, we wouldn't be walking away from a thought, or a dream.  We would be walking away from a little girl, we would be walking away from her.  We would be looking into her eyes, and saying "Sorry honey, just can't do it.  Guess your stuck there.  Oh well, life goes on."  And it would, because life doesn't stop for anyone.  We would have looked at her, loved her, pledged to be her family, and then shrugged and walked away.  And knowing that she is meant to be here with us, how could we do that?  If you felt that way, if you had made that pledge to a child, could you just walk away?

There have only been a very few road blocks that we have encountered in this process.  They have come in the minor form of people not understanding and showing various levels (or no levels) of support and understanding.  The ever frustrating wait for the the different government departments who take their own sweet time to accomplish things.  To the major issue of the numerous fees and charges that are associated with an international adoption.

This whole process has changed me.  And after spending all day on Thursday thinking about Destiny and K, and trying again, over and over, to explain to Emily about where each of her sisters are and why, I'm seeing things differently.

Our dossier was submitted to the authorities in K's country more then 2 weeks ago now.  I am surprised that we have not yet heard a response back from them yet.  We could however hear from them any day now, as early as today.  And we could travel any day now, as early as this weekend.  But we still have a huge mountain to climb over before we can go.  We have run into numerous roadblocks in this journey when it comes to money.  And we just found out on Friday that we do NOT  have the backup money that I was counting on.  We still need approximately $16 000 before we leave.

I have learnt so many things since we started the process to bring K home, and all of it was made crystal clear to me last week.  Raising this money, going to get her, and giving her a family...  That's not really so much about us as it is about HER.  This is all about her.  Giving her everything that she deserves and dreams of.  Can you look at this sweet little girl and tell her "Nope, sorry.  Can't help you today.  I choose to ignore the fact that you are alive.  I choose to not help you."  I have been so humbled.  And I am now becoming completely shameless where my daughter is concerned.  Our K needs your help, so that her family (us) can travel to her and bring her HOME.  She needs you to promise her that she will not be an orphan much longer, that money will not stand in the way of her having a chance to know love, to have a future full of bring and wonderful possibilities. 

Since finding RR I have seen so many miracles happen.  Now I am asking everyone to help us to become one of those miracles.  Our family needs your help.  If we are to make K an official part of our family and bring her home, then we need you.  I have never done this before.  Admitted that I couldn't do something for my family on my own, asked others to step forward and help.  There are so many times over the past that we thought that we should, that others had suggested it.  So many things that we needed for Destiny, but we kept quite, hoped for a government funding to cover it, and saved for what ever else we needed.  There is no government assistance to locate your child on the other side of the world and bring her home.  And there is no time to just sit and save up the entire $30 000 + that the fees total up to.  The credit that I was so sure would be available to us (and we were/are more then willing to in cure) is not, and so we come back to what I had always said I wouldn't do....fundraising, aggressively.  What more is a mother to do?  Like I said, it's not about me, I've become shameless in my words (although still feel shameful and like a failure for being here), and my daughter needs everyone help to untie her with her family.

I have been working hard at putting together a final fundraiser.  Something fun, exciting, with lots of prizes, something that will help us to raise this $16 000 in two weeks.  Is it doable?  Of course it is!!!!  I've seen it happen before, many of you have seen it happen before.  And it HAS to happen now.  This can't happen  (unless someone out there reading is willing/able to provide all of these funds on their own) without every one's help.  I will need much help in spreading the word.  I will need all of you who have ever love us, loved K, how has ever prayed for us, how has a heart for orphans, everyone to share our story, share our fundraiser, and to do it over and over again, until we reach our goal.  There is more then enough abundance in this world for each of us.  Love, prayer, faith, and determination can accomplish ANYTHING.

We are so honoured and grateful to everyone who has helped us in our adoption so far.  Please do not think that we are not.  We have screamed, cried, been completely speechless, giggled uncontrollably, and felt a whole mess of different emotions with each donation that we have received.  We are touched that there are people out there who care so much about our family.  We have no idea if there is even an adequate way to show our thanks to each of you.  But we still try to find it, to figure out how to share just how appreciative we are.  For now, at this exact moment, the best I can offer is the honesty of this post, and

Thank You!!!!  To each of you who have donated, shared, thought of us, prayed for us, supported us, encouraged us, and combination of these...  THANK YOU :-)  You have a permanent place in my heart, and my children will always know that YOU are a part of your family's story.  That without you, our story would be different.  Please know that YOU are important to us too.

Blessing and love